^^^Everett and my brother at the Gilbert Temple a couple weeks ago
++Well Everett and I have been in the homeland (Alberta, Canada) for about three weeks now and Ben is in California working his little butt off. It has been really really nice to be home, I have been so lazy here, napping during the day with Everett, then falling asleep with him for the night while putting him down, whoops. I'm blaming it on the baby ;) We are missing Ben a ton and the weather hasn't been great but still it is going to be very hard to leave here.
++For the first time ever, I am kind of 'off' my TV shows. Ever since my heart was ripped out and stomped on by Shonda Rhimes in THEE Grey's Anatomy incident. (not exaggerating when I tell you I literally wept for days) I haven't been able to watch my shows. I can watch ones like Shark Tank and The Blacklist because I am not so emotionally invested but I haven't been able to go back to any of my favorites. I thought the whole thing that happened on Greys was so so unfair, stupid and unnecessary. I have been a loyal super fan for 11 seasons and they go and kill the couple we have been rooting for the ENTIRE time, that WAS the show. Can no one be happy ever?! I have no other way to retaliate than to boycott Greys and all of Shonda Rhimes shows forever. I mean it, my favorite show, never again. In my mind, Meredith and Derek are very happy still, had another baby and living happily ever after. Don't even get me started on The Vampire Diaries, Elena leaving the show and they're going to keep going?! Disgrace! I might also have to happy ending that show in my mind and be done. Why can't every show just end as perfectly as Parenthood! I need a show to make me feel good to replace that one ASAP!
++This video is everything. DYING!!
++We officially have an ultrasound date and get to find out the gender on June 2nd, which seems soooo far away still!! The problem is, I will be getting the u/s here in Canada without Ben! We fly out to see him 5 days after, but I don't think I could wait that long to find out together, I'm not strong enough!....So I'm trying to think of something fun we could do over facetime or something.
++I have been in Canada three weeks and have had poutine (a canadian delicacy: french fries smothered in gravy and cheese curds) four times already so....also blaming that on the baby. Also indulging in other Canadian favs-sour soothers, canadian chocolate, perogies, OPA and Two Guys Pizza!
++ I loved this post on The Daybook on Hindsight, just like Taylor Swift, it's like she knows my life and thoughts. Also really want to read this book which everyone says just makes you want to throw away everything you own.
++I love ASOS's maternity stuff and want this dressandthis dress so bad. I also just want to basically BE that model...
Baby #2 is due October 30th (my moms's birthday) and we are so excited (and terrified) but mostly excited.
It took me (what felt like a long time) to be ready to try for another baby. Partly because I was so sick and pretty miserable when I was pregnant with Everett, partly because Everett was a really hard newborn and that threw me for a loop and not a good sleeper until he was almost two! Also because I really wanted to enjoy and prolong the time with just him, and for him to be that much older and prepared for a new baby, which kind of seems silly now because I'm realizing a sibling is the best gift you can give your child.
We had planned on starting to try in the new year (January 2015) right before Everett turned two, once he started sleeping through the night at 20 months, I was finally like 'ok maybe I could do this again'. We needed to get some health insurance and I didn't want to be SUPER pregnant in the heat of August, and I needed to mentally prepare myself to have the flu for 9 months-it was a plan-January. I was finally noticing I was feeling envious of my pregnant friends (kind of forgetting the whole puked 1 million times last time) and tearing up when I saw newborns, but I still wanted to stick to January. Then in November, at Thanksgiving, we had a little 'scare' that I might be. I took the pregnancy test without Ben and I remember my heart beating out of my chest waiting the 3 minutes. It was negative, and I felt surprisingly really sad and disappointed. I knew then that I was finally really really ready! (Ben was ready a long time ago, but patiently waited)
It worked out that we got pregnant in January anyways, like we had planned, but I was grateful for the earlier experience so I could enjoy that positive pregnancy test that much more because I wanted it to be positive SO bad. I took the pregnancy test 3 days before my missed period so I didn't expect it to show positive, even if I was actually pregnant but I was so impatient! Ben was working a night shift, so I was alone and took it right before I went to bed at like midnight, I got into bed and completely forgot about it, then just as I was about to fall asleep, I remembered and jumped out of bed! It was positive! I was in shock, I wanted to wait to tell Ben in the morning but I was so full of adrenaline after that, that I couldn't fall asleep till 5am!
^^^Me minutes after I found out, by myself at midnight! (yes I don't take my make-up off before bed, gross, I know!)
The next morning while waiting for Ben to wake up, Everett and I made some play-doh art (he was really into play-doh at the time) So when we went to go wake up, Everett was dragging Ben out of bed to show him what he made!
Despite the above picture, I actually think we're having a girl! Only because this pregnancy has been SO different from my first. I was so sick with Everett and although this time weeks 6-12 were still not great and I was pretty nauseous and had NO appetite, I have hardly thrown up at all! Last time, the sickness never went away, this time at almost 15 weeks I am feeling great. I feel almost guilty saying that, because I hated when other people said that when I was so depressed last time and sometimes I have these mini panic moments and think that because I'm not feeling sick, I must not be pregnant anymore! I feel so grateful though, because I don't know how I could have done it while trying to take care of my two year old!
I had pregnancy symptoms a lot earlier this time as well. I was having round ligament pains the day after I found out, I was nauseous earlier, my tatas were super sore way earlier and the worst part is that I started having pretty bad pregnancy insomnia at like 8 weeks :( I would be up for hours in the middle of the night, mind racing, worrying about the stupidest stuff and it was beyond frustrating, it is starting to get a little better now that I'm in the second trimester but still not really a completely restful sleep. I have had major cravings this time-junior bacon cheeseburgers from Wendy's, like a lot (poor baby), actually all burgers really (probably why my doctor said my iron levels were so good) also fancy root beer (same as last time), cafe rio (always) and crackers, cheese and pickles (all together) oh and Costco hotdogs!!! Been weirdly off sweets, like a huge bag of mini eggs sat in my pantry for months.
I'm in the fat-but-don't-quite-look pregnant phase and although I think I am showing, no one else probably would. Although I do feel like I am showing earlier, my 15 week belly this time is probably closer to my 18 week belly with Ever. Last time I did fruit/belly photos and I am determined to do the same for this baby, but mixing it up and doing baby size with candy/junk food. (you guys are going to get so sick of belly shots I KNOW)
I'm not doing the greatest at the 52 project this year. Last year I felt like I was taking intentional pictures, this year, they have mostly been on my phone and I am just going through the last few weeks and picking out my favorites, so here's to getting my butt in gear, and my real camera out. I will not quit this gosh dangit!
"A picture of my child, once a week, every week for a year"
Why does a backpack make him look 17 years old?!
Conquering his fear (that I accidentally gave him) of bugs.
Sweet Cheeks at his very first movie
A night on the Heber Creeper Train. He 'talked' about this for days before and days after
Isn't it weird that these young, early days with our kids, the days we literally spend every minute playing, protecting, fretting, loving, cuddling, teaching them they won't even remember?
I have been thinking about this lately. We are moving out of our apartment, the one we have been in for three years now at the end of the month. It is the home where we brought Everett to as a tiny newborn, where he has played and slept and felt familiar with for his whole little life.
I was feeling anxious for him that we won't be coming back to this familiar place. I was telling my mom my concerns and she said 'welldo you remember the BYU apartment we lived in your first year? Or the house on Columbia Lane when you were three? I haven't the slightest memory of those early years, so thankfully Everett will probably not be scarred or even care that we will be living somewhere different in a few months. At the same time, I was kind of sad and struck by the realization that I don't remember anything and Everett won't remember anything about these amazingly special years we are sharing together right now.
He won't remember the first time we met.
Or the long colic nights he spent crying while we walked him around the house for hours trying to help him and googling every possible thing to help (putting them on top of the vibrating dryer does not work fyi)
He won't remember our faces the first time he laughed or walked or said mama.
He won't remember the nights I nursed him and now rock him to sleep with stories and lullaby's.
Or the outings we try and plan for him that seem to be the most exciting thing he could possibly imagine.
Or the cuddles in bed in the morning, our little family of three, cuddling and tickling.
Don't you think if we all could remember this about our earliest years, we would be nicer to our parents when we were teenagers? But I guess that's just the vicious cycle, the circle of life or whatever. It's just nuts that these are the most precious and hardest days of my life so far and the little one who is making them this way won't even remember!
But I've been thinking....
One day (very very far away from now) Everett will have his own little baby. This baby will probably be colic (karma) and he will have all these 'firsts' with his little babe and he will know how I feel right now, and kind of, in some way 'remember' all these little things.
Just like now that I have my own child, I can picture my poor parents trying anything to get me to stop crying when I was a baby (they tied chains to the back of the car and drove around, something about static electricity>??|) or their joy and pride when I said my first word or my mom singing me to sleep. I can kind of indirectly remember. Circle of life my friends.
On a side note, that is why blogging and journaling is so important. He won't remember, but I will!
This week has been a really good recharge for us! It just so happens that Ben's spring break coincided with 4 days off from work as well. We didn't go anywhere cool or anything, it's just that parenting is so much more fun and seems so much less overwhelming when you're together. Every day it was exciting planning on what we were going to do that day. Instead of how am I going to entertain my toddler for another 5 hours before bedtime, it was like what do we GET to do together before bedtime. He also let me sleep in twice, so basically Christmas. We hit up the nickel arcade, Everett probably peed himself multiple times he was so excited about the games and tickets. We took him to his first movie and ran errands TOGETHER!
Anyway, like I said I'm recharged and ready to tackle the weekend of 4 night shifts in a row!
++We also got a date night. I literally dragged Ben to 'The Longest Ride' last night. Oh Nickie Sparks, you've done it again. It was exactly what I wanted and I was smiling like an idiot the whole two hours, even with Ben's sarcastic comments in my ear during the cheesiest parts. EMBRACE IT BEN! It was amazing, you chickies gotta see it.
++I saw Lauren Conrad wear ear 'crawler' earrings in a magazine, so I obviously bought them immediately with an Etsy gift card I had been saving for something special. I found this awesome pair on Etsy, they are gold filled not plated and pretty cheap. I like the look of wearing just one and then a gold heart stud or something in the other ear. They make me feel edgy or something.
^^^Couldn't find the pic of LC wearing them but this Emma Watson pic proves that I definitley needed them. The ones I got on the right, link here.
++Have you guys seen this video? I was dying!
++SOOoooo we're moving to California again this summer?! We weren't really planning on it but an opportunity came up so we're going with it. Well kind of....Everett and I are going to Canada for the Month of May then to California with Ben for June, then back to Canada for July and then back to California in August. Ben is going to be super busy so we didn't want to be totally bored out there and I love spending time at home in Alberta in the summer so I think it will be good!
++I want these shoes for summer so bad. I can't decide though, brown or black. What do you think?
On Easter Saturday, I took Everett to the Orem Easter Egg Hunt, I had never been to a city egg hunt and thought it would be fun. It wasn't. There were over 6000 people there and it was chaos. A volunteer accidentally told us the wrong line and we were in the older kids hunt. By the time I realized this, it was too late to run over to the 0-3 age hunt so we braved the other one. There were over 2500 eggs on the field and Everett didn't even get one measly egg, we just weren't fast enough. He got some rock hard salt water taffy that was surely 2 years old and we high tailed it out of there a little defeated. Luckily the day redeemed itself.
My mom sent down the cutest Easter basket for Everett with lots of presents and delicious Canadian chocolate and candies (it's just better). I added a few eggs filled with starburst jelly beans (you guys, life changing) and I hid all the candy in our 'front yard'. Everett was much happier this hunt as he actually got all the good stuff. Everett is quite literally the most candy obsessed child you will ever meet, so one of the better days of his life. We have had to ration to one candy from his Easter basket a day. When he wakes up in the morning I can hear him chanting 'nandy' (candy) over the baby monitor. Nothing like some scrambled ( cadbury cream) eggs for breakfast.
We went up to Salt Lake that afternoon to meet our friends and do City Creek and Temple Square. We ate at the Cheesecake Factory and walked around. It was so springy and tulip-y and Temple Square was so beautiful. Everett loved Temple Square, he was actually asking me to take pictures of him, running from one ledge to another and sticking his hands in all the water features he could find.
We weren't really planning on doing much on Sunday but last minute invited my siblings and my cousin and some friends over for Easter dinner and I am so glad we did because I was feeling a little homesick knowing my entire extended family was doing a huge dinner together in Canada. I made a ham and scalloped potatoes and baked beans and it was homey and delicious! It was also our church's LDS General Conference this weekend and although I was entertaining a two year old during all the sessions I felt the love of our leaders, inspiration to be better and so and grateful for all of my blessings.