Friday, February 27, 2015


I'm so excited for this weekend. Everett's turned 2 on Wednesday and we had a perfect little day, but we are having his 'choo-choo' party on Saturday with some family and friends (including my best friend who flies in that night). I have been doing little party prep tasks every nap time and bedtime for hours, stuff like glue little flags to striped straws and other things no one but me actually cares about. I like it though.

++My girlfriends and I had the funniest group text going about this dang freaking dress. Everyone thinks it is either white/gold or blue/black (the blue/black people, including my husband should be institutionalized) although I see purple and gold so I am an alien.

++Ben got me these earrings for Valentines Day. Ok I ordered them for myself from him for Valentines Day and I haven't taken them off. I got an E and the heart, I love personalized jewelry.

++Favorite dresses at the Oscars were Zoe Saldana (#1), Margot Robbie, Jennifer Aniston, Anna Kendrick and Kerry Washington. (Apparently I'm really into blue dresses this year ;) ) I think Boyhood or American Sniper should have won best picture, Birdman was literally one of the worst movies I have ever seen, hated it so much. I thought Neil Patrick Harris was surprisingly boring as host. Bring back Ellen.

++I saw on some random facebook link spam that Kaitlin was confirmed the next bachelorette? Is this true? I love her, think she is awesome and she is from Alberta! Although I would have loved Britt too, I know she took a lot of heat at the end there but I still love her. Was she not allowed to change her mind about Arlington? (Carly was soooo witchy, can't stand her) Haters gonna hate hate hate hate hate. And did you hear Chris is going to be on Dancing With the Stars, anything other than go back to Iowa I guess

++Did you see this trick to stop yourself from crying. I tend to start crying embarrassingly when talking to people of authority (ish). Example-trying to figure out wrongful cell phone charges with the Verizon people--weeping. Talking to passport agency trying to get Everett's American passport-Shaky voice crying, Ben has to take over. I'm not sure why this is, but I'm interested to try this trick!

++I was dying over a friends blog post about being a sunbeam teacher

++ Number one on my wishlist right now. Mom shoes making a comeback!

Friday, February 20, 2015

"Lot's of moms cry when their kids get their first haircut ok!>?"

If you follow me on insta, you know how much I love Everett's flowing, blonde wispy locks! I was so emotional about  his first haircut, I love little boys with long hair but it was getting a little out of control, especially the bedhead! So a week before his second birthday, he got his first haircut!

First a little ode to his hair: 
oh and also...

As much as I adore it, I knew it was time for a cut. And guess what? I loooovvvveee it! My awesome Aunt Norma cut it and it is perfect, she knew exactly what I wanted; to keep it longer-ish and a little mullet-ish. He sat so still and actually got so relaxed I thought he might fall asleep. I was scared it would make him look all grown up, but he still looks like my little baby but all the baby fuzz mess is gone. His hair actually went way more curly and it is so delicious.

How many pictures can you have from a 7 minute haircut? Let me show you.

Friday, February 13, 2015

Friyay (the 13th)

I hope you all have romantic plans for this weekend. Our babysitters (my brother and sister) decided to take off to California for the weekend (so selfish ;)) , so we are going to have a romantic (ish) night IN with both my valentines! We are also getting together with some friends for a BBQ....outside!! This Utah winter is bananas.

++I have been thinking about movies lately because of the award season (just to brag admit, I have watched every minute of every pre-show red carpet and every award show) and I thought I would do my top 10 from the last year. Ben and I's favorite date is dinner and a movie with snuck-in gas station snacks. Now that we are humans in charge of another human we love to watch a movie after Everett goes to bed at home (with kettle corn and m&m's) So because we don't get out much, here is the disclaimer for this list we have not seen Interstellar, The theory of Everything or Whiplash (they're on our list). Also I'm no critic, I'm very easily entertained. I thought the new Footloose movie was great if that's any indication. I just love movies.
These are in no particular order because that is too much pressure
  • The Imitation Game (left feeling equally inspired and depressed)
  •  American Sniper (balling my eyes out in theatre movie, eye-opener, amazing)
  • Boyhood (Pretty incredible, they filmed over 12 years and it was so real and different and I finished it, went and got E out of his crib and rocked him for a good half hour crying, life goes by so fast)
  • The 100 foot journey (so heart warming)
  • Guardians of the Galaxy (Only because I thought I would hate it but I thoroughly enjoyed it, wanted more kissing though)
  • The Fault in Our Stars (Saw this three times in theatres, #sobfest201
  • The Lego Movie (I usually do not like animated movies but thought this was so fun and clever and I loved the ending)
  • If I stay (I'm biased because I loved the book, and even more excited for the second one)
  • Veronica Mars (FAN GIRL over here, cult classic, everything I wanted from the movie after watching the whole series twice! And completley funded by kickstarter, so cool)
  • Million Dollar Arm (Inspirational sports movie+Don Draper)
Honoroable Mentions-X-Men, Captain America 2 (who am I) Wild, The Maze Runner.

++Everett and I decided to make sugar cookies for Valentines Day together, Three hours later, we were both in our underwear (everything else covered in flour) sink overflowing with dishes, I'm icing them STILL while Everett is watching Paw Patrol only to realize I had overcooked 3/4 of them.....

++I took Everett to the Provo Beach Resort and put three dollars on our card to play the little arcade games. Everett pressed the wheel of fortune thingy and one THE JACKPOT, 1000 tickets. I was freaking out, he could not care less. I took him to the prize counter, he could of got any of their BIG prizes like an mp3, or a BB gun or gift certificate to The Riverwoods.  He chose 3 hard-as-rock candies and a sticky hand for 20 tickets. We'll be back.

++I told Ben not to get me flowers for Valentines, all I want is a professional massage and Dove promise chocolates.

++Last weeks Bachelor episode? Maybe the best of all time. I was literally pointing and laughing at the TV like a crazy hyena when Kardashian Genie was having her 16-year-old she is going to regret that. Also I started the Blacklist, watched it ALL in the next 3 days, then got really depressed I was caught up.

++My friend Jordan received the most beautiful Hudson's Bay baby blanket from her Canadian friend and I think I am going to get pregnant again, just so I can own that blanket.

Monday, February 9, 2015

4/52 5/52 6/52

                                      'a picture of my child, once a week, every week for a year'


 I can't believe that a mother somewhere in the world hasn't figured out how to freeze time yet...

A fort makes eating fruit snacks and watching some Mickey Mouse magical.

He calls Ben Nandy (daddy)

Friday, January 30, 2015


This week my main concern was that Brad Pitt, Ian Somerhalder and Mindy Kaling have all been only an hour away from me and I am not taking advantage. I might drag Ben and E up there to Park City on Saturday. Also this house is cheering for Tom Brady this weekend and stand firmly behind them in this deflating time.

++I'm sure all of you have seen this by now, but Everett asks to dance to it at least five times a day, and still every time I watch it, I get all the feels and goosebumps and am all teary-eyed!

++ Parenthood ended forever last night. I haven't watched it yet because I am trying to hold on a little bit longer but I seriously will never forgive NBC for ending it after only 6 seasons! In other TV news, I am loving the award shows and am going to do a top 10 movies of 2014 post next week, Vampire Diaries is finally enthralling me again, and my mother in law ran into Dr. McSteamy aka Mark Sloan aka Eric Dane at Sundance in Park City and I want to die of jealousy. I would have fainted!

++The other day in the car, out of nowhere Ben said to me 'I have been watching American Idol at night when I get home from work while you're sleeping'. The way he said it was like he was admitting to murder or something. I died laughing at him, then asked him how Keith and J-lo have been. He said they're too soft.

++I want to become a girl who wears loafers. I want these ones so bad. Also these ripped jeans are on my wishlist. Probably wouldn't wear the two together but who knows, it would be like I'm hip and grunge, but also a classy man.

++I loved this post this week about curing cabin fever with kids in the winter months, so many good ideas in the post and in the comments. Everett and I made our first fort in the living room and it was one of my best mom ideas ever. It entertained us for hours! Ben said it was a very mediocre fort and he would be in charge of future forts.

++Kind of like the 52 project, I love this idea of doing a family portrait once a month, maybe next year!

++I was more than a little sad about this. I have a crush on hiiiim. (sobbing emoji)

++You have to watch this, you won't be able to look away. Ed Sheerchin (I actually love this song so much)

Well I'm pretty sure the world could have done without this post but you know, HAPPY WEEKEND!

Friday, January 23, 2015

On Mothering: Loneliness in motherhood and being INTENTIONAL about fixing it!

I expected and anticipated to feel a lot of things when I became a mom. I expected to love my baby more than life itself, I expected to be in awe of seeing my husband become a dad, I expected to be tired, I expected to feel overwhelmed at times, and I expected to feel so fulfilled in the role of a mother.  All of the above came true just like I thought, the roller-coaster of emotions that is motherhood included everything I expected to feel and more.

Something I didn't expect to feel was lonely.

I thought it would be the opposite. How can you feel lonely if you are constantly with another little human?

The days can be monotonous and long, my parents and in-laws live very far away (until recently), I don't have any friends with babies that live here in Provo and my husband works two jobs, long night shifts and sleeps and goes to school during the day. It can be lonely. I try to get out of the house and run errands or do something fun for Everett, I feel desperate calling my siblings (who are partying and living the college life) hoping they need something at Costco, just for the company!
I sometimes literally count down the minutes until Ben gets home and they can go by soooo slow.

I need to clarify and instill this though: I love being a mom. So many times during the day I will look at Everett and his cheeks will be droopy while he is concentrating, or he will make the cutest surprised face and my heart wants to burst and I don't care at all that on most days I have no social life or adult interaction. I love being a mom, and this post is not meant to be me complaining or telling you I am depressed, I just am just trying to be honest. I know I am not the only mom who feels this way at times.

The other day a close friend and her baby came over for an hour or so while they were in the area. Everett was napping so we just caught up and chatted for a bit. Talked about our kids and our husbands and our TV shows and how amazing being a mom is and how freaking hard it is and how our husbands just don't get it sometimes! It was only an hour and she left but I couldn't get over how refreshed I felt, how un-lonely I felt. Sometimes you just need to talk to another female, in the same life stage as you. I have felt this way before after a fun girls night out or even a half-hour alone at the mall. Refreshed!

So the point of this post it 'So what am I gonna do about it already?"

Well first of all I'm going to realize that this is a sacred season of life I am in. I am going to be a mom to young children for a while and then it will be gone. I am going to enjoy the time I am in now, the time where I am a provider, a comfort, a best friend to my child. I will get my alone time and girls nights and social life occasionally, but I know that in this season that it is not the most important thing. I want to enjoy these moments playing hide and seek for an hour straight or wandering the toy store on a night it's just us two. Although, loneliness may be in the back of my mind, this is a really really good and the best sacrifice I can make.

Secondly I am going to be more INTENTIONAL about it.

Intentional about leaving the house. Even if I have no desire to actually get out of our PJ's and go get in the freezing car, or interrupt this episode of Mickey Mouse, we are going to library story time gosh dangit! Because Everett and I are always happier after we get out and about around other humans.

Intentional about making plans with friends. When Everett was younger (post colic-because before that, that was just an impossible time to be intentional about anything) , I was so worried about naps and schedules and how much he hated his car seat that I really isolated myself and would cancel plans or rearrange schedules or turn down invites. After a while I realized Everett was perfectly fine being a half hour late for his nap if we were out having fun with friends or doing something at all stimulating. So instead of my first thought after a friend asks me to get together being 'how long will we have to drive?' or 'how late will Everett be for his nap?' I want to think 'Will Everett and I enjoy this?' 'YES!, we're in!'

Intentional about making new mom friends. I struggle with this one, why is it so hard to make friends as an adult? So many times I will see a mom at church or at the library and think 'I totally would get along with her, I want to be her friend' and then do absolutely nothing about it. The other day I met a mom at church and we small talked about our kids/apartments/husbands/greys anatomy etc. and then she said we should get together sometime and got my number and we scheduled a play date for this week, which I am totally looking forward to! It was that easy, I think most of us moms just all want to be friends and get together and have play dates, we're all thinking it but thank goodness this lovely mom did something about it. I have a new friend! I want to do that, I'm going to do that! So the next time I am sitting at the park and I overhear moms talking about Gilmore Girls and know we could be friends, I'm going to be intentional and I'm going to make conversation, get their numbers and talk about Luke Danes and baby bums and stuff! "do you want to come to my (kids) birthday party?"

More On Mothering Posts
Breastfeeding in Public, and that time I got called out.
24/7 Mom, it is our job to entertain our child every minute of the day?

Friday, January 16, 2015


++ Well it's been a looooonggg week over here. Of the last 12 days, Ben has worked 10 of them. Between both of his jobs and school, we are lucky if we get to see him more than an hour a day. So I've been feeling pretty sorry for myself and TV binging after Everett goes to bed. I'm just gonna say it, Grey's anatomy, of course has a very special place in my heart, but The Good Wife and Parenthood are the best shows on TV and don't even get me started on the fact that this is Parenthood's last season (don't worry I'm part of a letter writing campaign) #Netflixpleasebuyparenthood

++I started another whole30, the same thing I did during the summer.  It's going pretty good so far except I have to take alternate routes home sometimes so I don't drive by Swig, and delete all the doughnut places I followed on instagram.  My advice for whole 30 if you are doing it or thinking of doing it is this MEAL PLAN, or else you're starving, lazy, feel like you have nothing to eat and then cheat. Also eat lots of apples, they make me feel so full, and don't sweat the small stuff like 1 tbsp. of soy sauce or something like that, it's not a big deal, don't buy all new weird ingredients.

++ OMG the Bachelor, we have to talk about it. So I really like Chris, I think he is a good down to earth guy and even though he has no upper lip, he is definitely attractive.  Well in order for me to continue to like Chris I keep having to tell myself that the producers are forcing him to do things like keep the psychopath that is Ashley S on another week,  and forcing him to keep his hoodie unzipped below his nips and take woodsy showers outside.

Of course, like the rest of America, I love Britt but I have this feeling something is going to go wrong #toogoodtobetrue.  I think I would like Whitney if her voice didn't make me want to hack my ears off. I also like Megan (despite the super weird helmet thing) and Jade (but she isn't getting much screen time) but my favorite is Kelsey (the widow with the rocking bod) she seems the most normal and sweet.

I do not like the 'crossfit is life' chick, the alien frizzy single mom, or the 'virgin' jasmine kardashian.
Guys, I know it's trash, but it is so freaking entertaining.  Ps- Ben pointed out that Ashley S. looks like a female version of Steve Carrell and now I can't unsee it.

++I know I am a little late to the bandwagon, but I am totally on now. The podcast Serial has gone major viral and is sooo addicting. If you live under a rock and haven't heard of it yet, go listen to the episodes (they are free) and decide for yourself whether he is innocent or guilty. I am only half way through but I think he is innocent. I really cannot imagine a fate worse than being put away for something you didn't do. It seems the internet is divided on whether he did it or not. SERIALsly go listen.

++I got Everett black play-doh for Christmas thinking I was being all hipster and stuff but it is kind of depressing making hearts and stuff out of black play-doh, also it get under his fingernails and it looks like he is homeless.  Speaking of playing with Everett, he is really incapable of independent play. I'm talking like won't even play for 30 seconds by himself during a day. Don't get me wrong, I love playing with him but I can't even make breakfast or put in a load of laundry while he entertains himself. He loves playing with his blocks or trains as long as I am literally touching him, he won't even play an ipad game or anything without me right next to him.  I know this is part of first child syndrome, but I am going a little crazy.  Any tips moms?

ANYWAYS cheers to the long weekend, Ben has it off and I feel like we need to take advantage and hit Vegas or something, we will probably just watch movies and vacuum and stuff! WOOHOO
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